2 Weeks of Craziness!
Well, I'm not sure how much blogging I'll be up for in the next couple of weeks. I'm sure I'll find the time, but things at work will be insane these next couple of weeks. I have meetings out the wazoo, the handbook has to be finished by next Friday, we have interviews coming up next week, and oh yeah, more meetings. Should be a fun filled couple of weeks to test my time management and multi-tasking skills. I hope they haven't left me since college...or since my job in California for that matter. I'm sure things will go smoothly and get done in time, but it'll be hectic.
In other news, got into it with my mother again this evening. Why is it that the people who should have faith in me and my abilities - my family - have nothing but negativity and lack of faith in me? I would be nice, just for once in my career to feel like I'm being supported by them. I feel supported by so many other people. Why can't my own fucking parents support me in my choices? Instead they attempt to make me feel as though they don't think I can pull anything off, like I'm incompetent and will never be successful in their eyes. Well fuck that! As far as I'm concerned, I am successful in my career and in my life. I've worked my butt off to make my life what I want it to be, and it's getting there. Since college, I haven't had a single job that I haven't enjoyed and loved. How many Americans can say that for themselves? I finally have a permanent job that I enjoy! I've paid my dues in my field and they have finally paid off for me. And I have wonderful people in my life who love and support me...it's just a shame that those people don't include my own family. My version of success is obviously far from my parents version. And that's fine I guess, but it would be nice for to at least be happy for me and show me a little support from time to time. I mean, I am their only child and all. It shouldn't be that difficult for them. Sometimes I feel more at home with Randy's family than I do with my own. At least they support me and have faith in my abilities - and they've only known me for 6 months or so! And Shannon's family has supported me from day 1! Why can't my own family step up and run with it too? It's just frustrating is all. I'm thankful for all of the friends and family (non-blood) that have stood behind me thus far and I have some amazing people in my life. It's time I embrace them more and take a step back from those who don't. At this point my life, the last thing I need is negativity holding me back.
posted by Ruth @ 10:00 PM
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2 Comments:
Ruthie,
Don't worry, at some point they will realize. Maybe they do, it just seems parents always have to make that ONE comment that sets us over the edge. Believe me, been there done that and still put up with it! I think that besides ourselves, our parents are our harshest critics. "they just want what's best for us." In other words, they want our lives to be better than theirs. All we can do is try.
Keep smilin I'm proud of you and I think you are very successful! Keep up the good work.
ps, sorry haven't commented much the past week. Lots going on.
always
april
Remember when my "oh so supportive" mom failed to support me in going back to college? Even though she dished it to you, because I was her child, she had different feelings about what's right for me--and they were obviously so far from what I want out of life. Its not easy when the people who should support you the most see things another way -- and most often they don't change their minds on the subject. You, among many other friends have wonderfully supported my going back to school and the reasons why I'm going back to school, and that's helping my mom to see why its important to me, but it doesn't change the fact that she thinks I should live like she did and be a stay at home mom.
I'm so proud of you, and myself actually, for going out there and getting what you want out of life. There's imperfections in every plan--like living with the in-laws :) But the point is to have a plan, keep that plan, own that plan until you and only YOU are satisfied. You're going to go where ever you want in life and we're so proud of you!
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