Monday, September 19, 2005

Does It Get Any Slower????

So here I am at my parents place...sitting in what will soon be my parents new office area/what was once my bedroom. They finally got rid of their antique computer (which was a joke...they couldn't even get dial up internet on it 'cause there was no place for a phone cord to hook into it.) They've now "upgraded" to my Grandmother's old computer. Talk about slow! Man, I thought my computer was junk! Not even close! I mean sure, I don't have a whole lot of anything useful on mine, but at least it doesn't take 20 minutes just to load a program, document or internet site. Granted the dial up internet doesn't exactly help, but it's painfully slow when it's not on-line too. I never thought I'd appreciate my crap computer as much as I do right now.

*Phew* Now that I've done my frustrated ranting, let's move on shall we. As I said, I'm at my parents for the day. It's my Dad's birthday & I didn't get to go the family dinner/birthday get together earlier this weekend, so I figured I'd come hang out for the day & at least spend his birthday with him, give him his gift & what not. My Dad is one of those empty nest parents I think...he's always asking when I'm coming to visit next.

So we went to breakfast with 2 other friends this morning & took his car in for an oil change. I had bought a small bunch of flowers for Sarah, so while we waited on his car to be done I drove us to the cemetary to visit Sarah. She's been gone since Feburary of 2003 and it still seem strange to visit her gravesite. I guess it's just hard to accept that someone who I'd grown up with and goofed off with in Government class in High School is really dead at such a young age. And although we wen't close, I do miss her frequent letters. They always made me smile. While we were at the cemetary a car pulled in and stopped nearbye. I thought it was just someone visiting someone they've lost. Low & behold, it turned out to be Sarah's dad. He lives nearbye & saw my Dad & me standing at Sarah's grave. As soon as I introduced myself as simply "Ruth" he knew exactly who I was...probably because of all the mail I'd sent Sarah throughout the years since high school. I've visited her grave many times & have always been the only one there. I guess it's nice to know that her family is so close. I think it made her Dad feel good to know that the friends of hers who are still close enough to visit from time to time actually do. The flowers I left were on behalf of all of us (Shannon, April & Amanda) since I know you can't visit as much as you'd like.

Alright...onto a lighter note. My parents are having friends over for dinner tonight. I'm staying for dinner. It's rare that my parents actually cook at home, so I'm not going to pass up a home cooked meal from them! My Dad is in the middle of baking fresh bread (I love the smell of bread dough!) AND making homemade French Onion Soup...I'm not a huge fan on the soup myself, but the entire house smells awesome because of it!

After I finish up some laundry, it'll be off to Randy's Dad's place for a minute to pick up the Ohio State tickets for this weekend! Yes, yes - my first OSU football game. It should be quiet an experience I'm told...even if I'm not a big football fan. I'm sure we'll have a good time!

That's all for now. Sorry for the long post. But by now, you all know how I am.

2 Comments:

At September 19, 2005 5:13 PM, Blogger April said...

Thanks for thinking of Sarah, the last time I left flowers is when I was home in the march-april timeframe. It gets easier each time I go. This maybe weird to some, but I've had a couple dreams with her in them. The first, a few months after she passed maybe more...we went to her funeral, just like in real life, but went to her parents house a few days later and she was there and wouldn't acknowledge she was gone. But I just acted like she was still with us. (i know i'm a weirdo)
Second dream I had, not too long ago...her and I were hanging out somewhere, she told me, yes I am gone, but I'll always be somewhere for you. That dream I'll never forget.

I dream alot, and I remember those ones that just jump out at me. The ones and the only ones I've ever had of her, were those that "jumped out." I don't know how everyone else is with their dreams, but I thought I'd share. I heard that some people don't dream?

Anyways, I'm glad that you can spend time with the folks, I missed yet another birthday with my Dad this year. Have fun at the football game, even if it is OHIO STATE, bleh. heh.

 
At September 21, 2005 9:09 AM, Blogger Shannon said...

You're not alone april - I hada dream Sarah came to live by us and we went to Kent state U together to apply for admission - then another one I had she was pregnant and we were shopping for a crib. Mine aren't a realization that she's gone - its like she was here and it was a normal day. I have them pretty frequently and enjoy having her still be a part of me in some small way, even if it is just a dream.

Happy b-day to the Dad btw and have a blast at the Ohio state game. You may not be a fan, but the good thing is you can eat lots of yummy buckeye's and not feel bad :)

 

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